Monday, October 31, 2011

the very first kiss..


the very first time i saw this scene, my heart is jumping out hardly!

im so giddy with Ben's reasoning, ikaw na Ben!!
ahh, so kilig!!

Who's who: Ben or Noel?

i read this post from ForeverYoungAdults, she called it "A highly scientific analysis of Ben vs. Noel"


merely, its all about Who's who: Ben or Noel??
from the comments of the said post, there's lot of Team Noel who are actually don't agree at all, and since i am from Team Ben, i really had fun reading everything from it.. so, here it goes:

"That's right, before there was Edward vs. Jacob or Peeta vs. Gale, there was Ben vs. Noel. And it was a debate that raged fiercely through four years of Felicity's mother-cussing indecision. 


Today, I’d like to settle that debate once and for all. And yes, I do realize the immensity of my task, which is why I’m employing our usual highly scientific methods of analysis. I’ll be comparing Noel and Ben and awarding them points (out of 10) in several pivotal categories, and their total score will provide the definitive answer to this debate.


So grab your lab coats and LET’S DO SOME SCIENCE.


1) PERSONALITY
NOEL:   7 pts.
Noel exemplifies the finer virtues of sensitivity, and like our other fave sweetheart, Peeta, he even goes through a crazycakes period just so he can become more manly and badass. Deep down, though, he’ll always be the nice guy, and while I find that adorable, it’s the main reason why Noel will always be stuck in the Friend Zone. He’s goofy and compassionate, but neither of those words spell SEXY.
BEN:    8 pts.
Ben can be a little aloof, and his impulsive behavior is frustrating as hell. But when you realize that he’s overcoming some major family drama (more on that later), his grumpy demeanor becomes insanely charming. Speaking of charm, all the boy has to do is crinkle his eyes and smile, and I swear, a rainbow will shoot out of your chest and end in a pot of swoon. He’s also surprisingly thoughtful and caring, and his loyalty knows no bounds. (I mean, have you MET Sean?)


2) LOOKS
NOEL:   7 pts.
Just look at those puppy dog eyes! That excellent bone structure! Noel is definitely a handsome dude, and if that’s how all of the “nerdy” RAs at NYU look, I totally went to the wrong college.




BEN:   10 pts.
The first time I saw Ben on screen, I was like, “Oh yeah, Felicity should DEFINITELY move to New York.” And that was before I even knew what he wrote in her yearbook! The boy is FOINE, from his adorable grin to his totes toned swimmer’s body. I still can’t forgive the University of New York for canceling their swimming program, thereby robbing of us of more scenes featuring Ben in a Speedo. Damn you, fictional college!


3) TRAGIC PAST
NOEL:   2 pts.
As far as I can remember (and I’ve seen this series many, many times in its entirety, because I believe in extensive research), the only tragic thing in Noel’s past is his misfortune in dating a girl named Hannah who likes to pout her lips and play fugues. Of course, in real life, that turned into an even greater tragedy (Jennifer Garner, how could you?), but let’s try to keep fiction and reality separated, ok people? We have an important debate to settle about our two potential boyfriends here!
BEN:   7 pts.
Ben’s dad (RIP John Ritter) is an alcoholic, and Ben grew up supporting his mother and fighting against the possibility of turning into his father. It’s the reason he doesn’t always know how to handle his emotions, which not only makes us sympathize with him, it also gives me a great excuse to still be in love with him even when he’s an asshole.


4) TREATMENT OF FELICITY
NOEL:   8 pts.
Aside from the time he drank beet juice and went batshizz insane at the library, Noel treats Felicity with respect and adoration, the latter of which can be a little much at times but still, he’s super considerate towards her. He clearly wants the best for her, and he’s insanely supportive of her dreams, whether it’s helping her study to be a doctor or collaborating with her on Loser Pet Store. Sure, he drops her for Hannah, but that’s a typical freshman mistake*, and even after Felicity leaves him hanging at the airport and chooses Ben, Noel eventually forgives her and takes her back as a bestie. Definitely a good guy.
BEN:   4 pts.
We have now reached the Ben Handicap. Dude is TERRIBLE at being a boyfriend, or even a *friend* to Felicity. He’s flaky and scared of his feelings, and he has major commitment issues. He’d sooner have an affair with a scary married catering lady (major cougs) or run off to the Hamptons with a spoiled rich girl (HATECHOO AVERY) than stay in a relationship with Felicity for more than a few months. The only reason he doesn’t have a zero in this category is because, well, what goes around comes around. I mean, if some girl stalked you all the way to New York and then, like, looked at yr confidential college file and then re-wrote yr paper for a class and almost got you expelled, you’d be rushing to give her a restraining order, not a hug. Just sayin’.


5) ROMANTIC GESTURES
NOEL:   4 pts.
It’s almost unfair to judge Noel in this category because being a clueless, awkward guy is part of his charm. And awkward guys are usually too busy being self-conscious to pull off anything romantic, although occasionally, they get lucky (hey-o!). Such is the case with Noel and his use of Boggle as foreplay. I gotta give the man some points for that.
BEN:   10 pts.
The silver lining to Ben being such a dick to Felicity is that he gets to make it up to her in super swoony, dramatic fashion. I mean, buying her the necklace was nice, but asking her to go on the road trip with him, out of nowhere? MEGA SIGH. And then there’s the pièce de résistance: presenting her with the film reels of the movie he missed in Bryant Park while earnestly begging her to give him another chance. Watching this scene always results in the strange physical phenomenon of my eyes filling up with tears while my lady parts fill up with lust. Ben, WHAT MAGIC YOU WEAVE.


6) JE NE SAIS QUOI (certain something)
NOEL:   6 pts.
In order to account for every remaining variable, I felt it necessary to include this final category. Noel definitely has something special glimmering behind those amber eyes, and I would have ZERO problem breaking the “no RA/student relationships” rule with him.
BEN:   A Million!
I realize that number may seem ridiculous to you, but trust me, I’m a scientist. And Ben has earned every single one of those points. He just has that *something*… that swagger, that smile, the magnetism of thousands of high school crush objects rolled into one devastatingly hot, charismatic package. Without careful study of the show, it’s easy to miss. Just ask my boyfriend, who thinks it’s lame that I like “that dude from Underworld.” Haters gonna hate, but I always understood why Felicity never got over Ben. It’d be like giving up Chimay for O’Doul’s. It’s just plain wrong.


CONCLUSION:
Let us total up the points, shall we?


Noel: 34 pts.
Ben: 1,000,039 pts.


You can’t argue with those numbers, folks, because numbers DON’T LIE. Noel put up a good fight, but we have a clear victor in this debate, and that champion is Ben Covington.


BOOM! CHECK THAT SCIENCE!


Now that I’ve solved a mystery that’s been baffling scholars for years, how about we celebrate with one of my favorite Ben scenes ever?


i'm 100% agreed with the above SCIENTIFICALLY ANALYSIS between the two guys.


as i said, sorry Noel, but im always be TEAM BEN!!



yearbook note from ben


Dear Felicity,
Here it goes. I watched you for four years, always wondered what you were like, and what was going on in your mind all that time when you were so quiet, just thinking. Drawing in your notebook. I should’ve just asked you, but I never asked you. So now, four years later, I don’t even know you. But I admire you. Well, that makes me sound crazy, but I’m okay with that. So take care of yourself.
Love,
Ben
P.S. I would’ve said, “Keep in touch,” but unfortunately, we were never in touch.

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Dear Ben,

I dreamt once that I lost you. We were on icebergs. And I can’t remember if you were floating away from me, or I was floating away from you. But I remember waking up beside you. It was the middle of the night and it was raining, like tonight. And I heard your breathing, calming me. It was like we could speak without words. I wonder how and when we learned this secret language. Was it in between the lines you wrote so long ago in my yearbook? Were we whispering it to each other while we became friends? I only know that at some point, in the silences, I heard you. And now I’m left with words, these useless words, when all I want is to be beside you again. To time my breathing with yours. To make you feel safe, to help you sleep. To bring you back to me.



Boggled

Dear Sally,

I've never, ever been more confused in my life. Something has happened. Something I can't believe. Something I don't--I don't even know how to talk about. Noel and I were hanging out one night.
And I've told you, like, a million times, he was pretty much the most comforting part of being in New York. I felt that I could go to him, anytime with anything and that he could come to me. We had an understanding.

Ok, wait. Hold on. I gotta back up here. I think that Ben and I have been getting closer. Which....granted isn't saying much. Julie and I are, sort of, at an impass, which, um, I'm sure we'll be fine. I just....don't know how exactly.

Ok, I know, I'm, um....jumping around, but this is important. The university has this used dorm room refrigerator program - whoever wants one signs up. It's like a lottery system, and Noel was in charge. I guess he looked cute that day. I don't really remember. Elena might have thought there was something going on between me and Noel. But I swear to God there was nothing! And you know why there was nothing because Noel are I were friends! New, really good friends. [B Which brings me back to where I started. I mean, all we were doing were sitting there -- playing Boggle.

Sally, you know me. I don't get confused easily. Well, that's not true. But, nothing compares to this. Nothing!
I'm -- I'm so screwed up that I don't even know what I'm feeling. I'm just.....on edge.

So, anyway, I thought this whole Noel thing through extensively...and I truly believe that the most mature way to handle it, for the moment, is to avoid Noel at all costs for as long as possible......which is actually really is a sad feeling. Avoiding someone who might be......your best friend.

The track was on my way home. I just dropped by. I don't know if he'd be there practicing for his tryouts. I remember in high school watching Ben run, and wondering how he ever learned to run like that.

And so tomorrow night at 8 o'clock, Noel and I have.....a maybe date.

-felicity, 1x04



Hot Objects

Dear Sally,

I'm probably making too big a deal of this, I'm sure I am, but tonight is my first college party....ever.

Julie's right, right. I mean, the first college party is when it all happens. (Cut to Felicity taping) Ok, so, this is just one version of how it could go, one secnario. Ben shows up and, uh..... we see each other from across the party, and he comes over. And we talk about, um, you know, Mr. Regalsky's class or something. He likes how I look, I like how he looks. And we basically, um, you know, appreciate you know how each other looks. And then we start dancing, and we dance for hours, until we're just exhausted and sweaty and ready to pass out. But the party's on my floor, so I say, "You want to go to my room", or, um, (sultry voice) "You want to go to my room?" Whatever. And Meghan's not here, thank God. And so, we jus sit on my bed, and talk, about everything. Of course, I blew my first opportunity to ask him.

Can you believe that? I was right there! All I had to say was, "Yeah, next time, this Friday." God! How incapable am I? That was lame.

You know what's amazing? I couldn't feel better about sticking with premed, and this is going to be my first class, the beginning of my life as a doctor. (walks into a crowded class room) Because I'm not a Stamford, now I get to study under someone who, in a way, I've idolized. For years, through his books, I've learned so much from him, I kind of feel like I've met him already.

Sally, I would only say this to you....so after you listen to this tape, you have to erase it. But I can....actually picture, what it might be like....to be with a man for the first time....sexually. If you're laughing at me right now, I don't blame you.


-felicity, 1x03



the last stand..

Dear Sally,

Okay listen your not going to believe this. First of all NY is the best Thank God I decided to stay here. At first it was sort of scary waliking down the sidewalk. It was like being one snow flake in a crazy blizzard. But then it occurred to me everyone's a snowflake.

I know my parents are praobably freaking out now that there back in Ca. So just to reassure them that Ny is not swallowing there daughter whole I calll the. Leaving like ten minute messages on their machine.
so here's the thing you won't believe. I was feeling totally okay with thw whole Ben thing. It was just a stupid crush. I didn't work out and that's all, over, next.

I thought things might be weird between Julie and ma you know because of what happened. But I talked to he about it and it turns out she's totally over Ben too. So we're both over Ben..................

It sorta through me off when he said that and at the time I didn't know what to make of it. okay Finally the thing your not going to believe. I was at work study filing housing documents and Mrs Jesph came up to me.
It seems someone called the admissions office. He wanted to know if it was possible to access student colege application essays-mine. Mrs Jesph told him no and he hung up without leaving a name. Then Mrs Jesph congratulated me on having an admirer.

Here's my new theory. No matter what you can never be ashmed of the truth. Never. Anyways I hope you happy and that your finding a life in Santa Fe.

I miss you Sally.

Talk back soon okay.

Love,
Felicity

-felicity, 1x02


Pilot

Dear Sally,


You should probably be sitting down for this. First of all everything was perfectly fine. You know on paper. High School was going exactly as it was supposed to. I mean in three months I'd be at Stanford Pre-Med. Then in four years Stanfoed med school. Then I'd start my four year recidency at one of the Stanford hospitals.

My dad was thrilled. You know because basically he's had my life planned out for me since i was pretty much a zygote. I was surronded by people who were actually looking forward to their lives. My parents reaction was typically understated.

They say that crash victims, people who lose a limb, that they can still feel their missing arm or leg even after it's gone it's called phantom pain right. Well suddenly i had this horrible thought. What if highschool went away but the feeling of it didn't. I mean i didn't feel joy or sorrow or anticipation, things were going so well but all I could feel was dread.

Three years ago I held a pint of Ben Covingtons blood. I was volunteering for the tenth grade blood drive. That's just about as close as we ever got. It's funny sometimes the smallest decisions can pretty much change your life forever. So this is what Ben Covington wrote:

Dear Felicity,
Here it goes. I've watched you for four years always wondered what you were like. What was going on in your mind all that time that you were so quiet just drawing in your notebook. I shoulda just asked you but I never asked you. So now four years later I don't even know you. But I admire you Well this makes me sound crazy but I'm okay with that. so take care of Your self.
Love,
Ben
P.S. I would of said K.I.T. but unfortunately we never were in touch

Suddenly I knew what everyone else was feeling. That was the worst summer of my life. So basically I've given up everything my parents planned for me. Everything I ever expected for a boy I don't even kmow. I guess what I'm saying is this all may be a colossal mistake as my dad would say. But on the other hand maybe it'll I save my life or something. I don't know Please respond ASAP I miss you

Love,
Felicity

-felicity, 1x01